Published on April 2nd, 2014 | by SoniaJHarris0
Crazy Lessons, Crazy Love!
Full reliance on Christ does not make me weak, it makes me capable. Sometimes I worry that if I don’t do things on my own or take matters into my own hands, it will make me appear needy or powerless. There is nothing that I won’t do, even if my bones are trembling with fear and I’ve had to completely trust in his protection and will for my life. I’ve had to take out fear and replace it with assurance. Assurance that God will always sustain me in the times where I’m walking on pavement of places unknown. He has me, I’m just learning to rely on his perfect plan.
Community isn’t a suggestion, it’s vital for spiritual growth. When moving out to a new state, somewhere so far from home, I knew that the most important things that needed to be taken care of was finding a community that was going to flourish my faith. One of the things that I was most scared of when moving to New York was finding spiritual friends who were really seeking to grow. Of course I knew where I stood and who stood beside me, but I no longer was at home with my Christian family and home church, I had to do things on my own and really make total effort in finding a christian community and a church that was going to be life giving. That would stiff up the kingdom individual God called me to be. I can say the community that I’ve planted myself in has done nothing but speak words of affirmation and uplifts encourage to me. My mind is constantly renewed, and I am challenged to become better allowing me to feel myself developing into the direction I am to be. This is pivotal. You NEED a community of like-minded individuals whom see your greatness are going to tell you that you have purpose and you need to keep pushing, or else you will fall. I’m so thankful for The Hillsong Church and the fellowship that I have been welcomed in to.
My treasure is in heaven, not in earthly things. Welcome to living in a major city where people have money and people look like they have money. And instead of “How are you?” The first question is “What do you do?”. Easily the hardest battle I’ve had to fight while living here is the desire to need a title. Culture is different and in California people will walk around in flip flops and 3 day old-tank top absolutely satisfied! Rarely did I size myself up to others or even consider introducing myself by my “title”. Here however, it’s all about what you do. That is when I remind myself of a verse in Hebrews that I adore, ”Don’t be obsessed with getting more material things. Be relaxed with what you have. Since God assured us, “I’ll never let you down, never walk off and leave you,” we can boldly quote,God is there, ready to help, I’m fearless no matter what. Who or what can get to me?” (Hebrews 13:5-6 MSG). I’m daily learning to be content with the things the Lord has already given me. Not just material things, but the things that really matter, the characteristics of a girl whose heart is lost in His. He promises to never leave us and is always there to help, even in the times of discontent and unhappiness. Thank you, Lord for never being angry with my desire for more, but embracing me and whispering to me that YOU alone are enough.
Don’t settle for little, don’t ask for small. Believe in BIG things, because we serve a BIG GOD. Something that I find myself doing too often is praying for little things because I feel as if dreaming for the crazy things will never happen. God doesn’t want us to come to him with little requests, he wants us to bring the GREAT things to him and believe that he is big enough to answer them. Why not believe our God is ever faithful? Why not believe that something that seems too good to be true can actually happen? Why not trust that He has our best in store? He says that he will give us the desires of our hearts so why do we feel we need to push those desires aside and compromise for something insignificant? If there is anything I’ve learned, it’s that you can not box in what God can do.
Be open minded to the plans God has for you. God takes us to places that can be difficult for us to imagine. Instead of looking at the places and things God is calling me to and wondering what the point is or where it’s going to get me in the future, I’ve had to just surrender and trust that if it’s truly where he’s leading me than only good things can be in store. Though I am not announcing yet where I’ll be going in the fall, I can say it’s something that I always thought was “pointless” and would never benefit my future. But once I actually surrendered and laid it at his feet, I was overwhelmed with a sense of peace. I am so excited for my future because I have not placed my mindset in a corner, I’ve let him mold me and create me into someone that is willing to walk on waters that are rough and unknown. This has become the greatest love I’ve ever known.